The word V I R U S , VIRUS

Assalamualaikum. 

okay kpopers pon pandai bagi salam okay. hahaha saja nak bagi tahu.
I already told you about LUHAN right? yes. today i want to tell the world that i have definitely fall for him. i know this is insane and stupid at the same time but that is the fact i have to face. 
sometimes i want to laugh at myself. why the old me back? the one who was obsessed with KPOP about two years ago. i stop FANGIRLING about two years. after i heard EXO's song,GROWL i loose and i am pitying myself right now. at first i do not like them because of MAMA song. then hahaha you know what . 

and i seriously want to stop my obsessesing to EXO because i gonna have a big exam next year. SPM . haihhh. its hard. to let this feeling go just like blow the dust is hard as you want t swim in a pool that fill with white and blue shark. lemme tel you why i fall for him 

first,
his eyes is just a beautiful creature. glowing and wet at the same time. 

second,
his smile. oh my GOD. only HE THE MERCIFUL one know how i am feeling when looking at his innocent smile. seriously dead. hahahaha

third,
his voice is like aaaahhhhh!!!! chinja . melting habis babe. 

fourth,
perangai dia yang tak hais habis nak kenakan orang. hahaha same with my CRUSH la katakan. 

tu je kut yang aku suka pasal dia. eleh muka memang la. retis gitu. muka dia memang ORIGINAL punya okay. nama dia XIU LU HAN he's chinese . naturally kyeopta. hahaha.

visit my tumblr to discover more about him. 


actually tomorrow i have to leave and i'm maybe not update for a long period because of school. so sorry. i have to focus on my study for the big exam next year. wish me luck guys ! fighting !

bye [:

Wondering Why?

i am wondering with a lot of question in my head rite now. but only one i can tell you. 

"Why this raya break I always met him? why? why? and why?"
"is there something wrong with him?"

usually he never agreed to come to my house even my house is having an open house or sth like tht. weird ha? huh it is impossible for him to ask me a forgiveness. absolutely not !
what's the point if i think bout it too much? but if this happened to you what would you do? accept what re you thinking all this time or just let it go like it never happen before?
i think its better for me to just ignore him. right? anyway he is my cousin. bad bad bad. yea now its my turn to be a bad bad person. 

was is him. why is he staring at me like that? like he wanna say something but he can't speak it out. arghhh chincha!!! i hate me when i am thinking about useless thing tooooo much than myself? why would i care his feeling and what is he thinking or saying right? ergg just just just ignored him like you do before. you never know he exist before. GOD why? why now? 

ouh he is not my BOYFRIEND anyway. just cousin. i have my own boyfriend and he is way better than The Evil him. this is my future husband. i thought so hahahahaha 

I L O V E HIM

the heart is bleeding

Assalamualaikum. saya ingin berceloteh di sini walaupun tak tahu apa yang nak dicelotehkan itu. kalau aku duduk jiwang sorang sorang banyak je ayat yang keluar. eh salah perkataan. bongok terasa pon ada. gila pon ada. sebab bila nak menconteng screen ni ha blur macam orang masuk exam tanpa revision. gila kau. hahaha. ok serious tak lawak. 

raya ni tak sempat nak update entry. cehhh update entry la sangat. bajet ada makhluk baca la tuu. wakaka. biasa la orang family besso kan. tahun ni raya sakan kut. pergi sana sini situ sinun sampai tayar kereta bocor. dah la hari raya pertama. kesian abah. tapi tu la pengalaman aku 'BERAYA SAMPAI BOCOR' . i named it. haha. stop haha la . nak tunjuk pix tapi dengan kakak aku la. malas nak birugigi. you know. 

dan petang tadi aku berasa seperti semua jari ni diletakkan di celah pintu dan pintu itu ditutup dengan sekuat hatinya. sakit hati wei. adik aku yang BAJET HERO tu . biasa la aku kan gegirl gitu. dia boy. dia ingat aku ni tak gangster ke nak fight back. walawei please la. blue belt kut. cacaca perasan. tapi serious dari dia kecik sampai besso panjang hampir sekaki kut. entah. tiba tiba dia pelekong kotak tissue yang berkotak kotak tu kat aku dalam kereta. katanya belakang sempit. 

"letok depang la tisu ni" sambil pelekong kotak kotak tissue tu
"weii mangkuk sakit ahh!" pelekong balik. tak kena pon.
"oooooloh! belang ni sepik oh! tok depang aah!"
"kut mu laaa"

haha kau ingat mangkuk tu dah habis situ? tak beb. nak tunjuk hero la konon. dia mengata je pandai. pokpek pokpek kat belakang dok mengata kat belakang .ngek . sampai je rumah dia sepak slipper yang berdekatan. aku tukang bukak kunci rumah. kongkeng kongkeng dok bukak tetiba terasa ada selipar melayang. eiiiii mangkuk hangit cap ayam branded betul budak ni. masuk je rumah aku campak kunci. masuk bilik. ok laa cool kejap. keluar. bukak tv. duduk. dia tukar channel aku yang dok shok tengok. eiii memang laa. burst out habis feeling aku. kakaka terasa lucu. sendiri. ye laa besa besa pon gaduh macam bebudak. sejak dia kecik lagi dia suka buat hati aku sakit. 

*undur belakang*

"baling aaa!" aku cakap.
"kejo ar kalu dang!" adik aku yang gegirl.

tetiba terasa sakit dibelakang kepala. sentuh. tengok tangan. darah. aku pusing belakang. tengok dia yang lempar batu tu kat aku. 

bongok la dalam hati. masuk rumah nangis. ye la bebudak lagi time tu. 

dan terasa semakin hari semakin melampau perangai dia. err tolong laaa sabar kan aku Ya Allah. nasib lepas raya ni aku dah masuk hostel. aaaahhhh! terasa nak nangis bila teringat kena tinggal family jauh nun disana. bila teringat kes dia tak balik lagi bagus.

long story laa this time.ada lagi nii. nanti la post dua kali eh. huahuah huawawa.

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Assalamualaikum. Actually saya baru je habis baca blog Aizat Abd. like you don't know this amazing guy. i fall in love with his blog. jangan salah faham ok. haha joking. ye la sape tak 

''fall in love'' dengan blog dia. dengan bahasa yang slumber gitu. dia tulis dengan sempoinya.

amboi. kalau la Si Blogger Star aku ni baca entry aku yang ni mesti malu siot aku. selimut ditarik hingga ke muka. malu la katakan. cehh tengok dah boleh tiru sedikit gaya dia.

haaaishh mesti best kan? orang adore kita? tak kut. aku tanya aku jawab. bagus. sangat.

in real life aku cakap sepatah dua. saat aku malas nak melayan orang laa. kalau ditanya

empat patah aku angguk . hehe. takde la sampai nak kira setiap patah. eii nonsense. 

oke sekarang ni aku hanya tulis apa yang aku rasa. tapi yang aku hairan apa yang aku rasa sekarang ni? macam kosong je jiwa. wah! jiwa kosong. jarang berlaku dalam hidup aku. 

selalunya penuh dengan isi yang tak berguna. korea punya kerja. aku pulak bodoh melayan.

tanpa disedari kita dah berada di akhir ramadhan. sedihnya. rasa macam ramadhan kali ni tak memberi makna sangat untuk aku sebab aku tak buat ibadah yang biasa aku buat. most of the time i spent for TV. useless . wasting my life time. serious bongok. 

alaaa adik aku kacau line la pulak. eh budak keluar. hoho jelingan maut dilemparkan. macam la aku takut. mata sepet macam cina. tak nak kata korea nanti hidung macam tayar kembangnya.

kosong. itu je yang aku tahu sekrang ni. ouh! aku masih lagi tak habis dengan masalah aku yang satu ni. nak transfer ke tak? nak ke tidak masih belum dikenalpasti. apa yang terbaik untuk family aku maka itu lah yang terbaik untuk aku. semua orang macam tu kan?

tak hairan. hidup berkeluarga lebih best dari hidup sorang sorang. hakikatnya aku selalu keseorangan. tak dak sapa nak teman kite ni ha! kawan?

mungkin.

kut.

mereka tak semestinya selalu ada untuk kita. ye la masing masing ada hal sendiri jugak. kesian la diaorang. they have their own life to live.

adakah saya snobbish?anda rasa? mana la kau tau dah kau tu program je. aduyaii~

when i'm alone in this middle room i felt so peaceful . i think maybe i'v been created to be alone.when i need somebody besides me they all runaway. and left me alone. crying. in the dark. so that no one can see. 

when it's raining I go out to play. I am smiling. but at the same time I am crying.

rain cover it up for me. ignore my grammar mistake. why when I am all alone and i speak to myself i rather use English ? Am I stupid? naah~ no way. but i just like it. it make me comfortable.

what I feel I spit it out in my innocent blog. why? because I don't have nobody to talk with.

seldom I tell my life story. okay i think my entry is getting longer and i am very sure no one's reading this blog.  enough for today . see ya soon. 

just write what i feel . enjoy (:

m a a f

assalamualaikum. korang maaf sangat. saya tak bermaksud pon. maaf sangat sangat. i mean that's not my point. ermm a little but after the time has passes so i feel like wanna go back to that school. seriously i felt guilty. why? why i always rushed in making a right decision for my own future. i just want the best for me because i have never be the best before. yes if you guys want to mad at me it's okay. i accept it.

the way i judge the school is too cruel. yes that's right. I AM CRUEL. this is no one fault . but me. it's all my fault now. please i wanna go back . but is it the best for me? look once again i ask. ahhhh!!! seriously fool. i hate me. ok done writing.  hope you guys not mad at me if i go back. sorry :(